Unanswered Questions

Last night we threw a party! Sad to say but my first day
here I slept most of it away. I still had jet lag and could not stand long in
the operating room. When I awoke it turns out we had 3 hours to throw a party,
invite about 80 people and coordinate games! Thanks to working as a camp
conselor for many years I knew plenty of games for children. But there weren't
many children! So we improvised and did the best that we could but by the end of
the night they somehow talked me into singing karoke. I had to sing Sade from my
namessake, and it reminded me of my mom. But with my bad voice I doubht I did it
justice. The party went alot better than expected. It seems to be in India you
just let things flow. I learned about Indian time which is at least an hour
later than the time you say. Our party was supposed to start at 8 and most
people did not arrive until 9:30-10. I was just happy someone showed after
waiting so long. </P>
<P>My luggage still has not arrived but luickly Dr.Henry is working hard on
getting it back. The one thing he reminds everyone is don't worry. Seeing him in
action I see why he has to give the reminder to be worry free. Whenever there is
any problem it comes to him, from collecting payments to retrieveing lost
luggage. Not only does he have to be a stern business man and collect something
from every patient he also to has a huge heart. Most of the patient can not pay
much and other business men would turn people away is they could not pay a full
bill. Seeing as I'm interested in the business side of psychology I am very
interested in seeing how Dr. Henry runs his business with so much compassion.
Maybe there's another lesson to be learned to pass along.</P>
<P>Today was my first full day and I have seen many sick people. Including burn
victims, cancer patients, sick babies and many others. I actually was in the
surgery room as they cut the cancerous woman open and cut her stomach in half to
rid her of her cancer. The people that come here are on their last limb.
Oftentimes they at first went to a witch doctor to try to get healed. The
doctors here point out the branding that the witch doctors performed. With my
face mask and hair cap on some of the nurses tell me I look Indian. I guess it
is true. When Rihanna, Bryan, and I stand in a circle looking on a sick patient
they look to me first and speak Hindi, hoping I understand. But I am not Indian
nor a doctor so all I can do is offer a kind smile for their troubles instead of
the magical healing words or medicine they hoped for.</P>
<P>To bring this to a close I would like to discuss something that has been on
my mind. Currently I am reading Maya Angelou's I Know Why The Caged Bird Sings,
In the book she says when she was a child the Civil Rights Movement had not yet
taken place. At their church revival the Pastor preached that it was easier for
the black people of those times to make it to heaven than their white
counterparts. This was due to the blacks having less and having to endure being
a second class citizen. The Pastor used the biblical phrase "It is easier for a
camel to fit through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to make it to
heaven." Well it just made me think compared to America the Indian people are
living in the worst conditions. No adequate healthcare or clean water even
America somewhat provides these things. So the question that has been on my mind
lately is this: Since some of the Indian people are suffering so much is it
easier to make it into heaven? They aren't rich they are trying to make it on
with what they are dealt. So are the smaller sins they commit not looked on so
harshly? I could forgive someone for trying to get some extra of my money to
feed their family. I don't have much but it is a little more than them. So would
my sins count as more since I have more and have easier acess to doing right?
Would there sin cup be less full than mie because they have to fight to survive?
These are questions I just don't know the answer to.